I talk a lot, but there are things held back, too. Things I’m scared to talk about, or reluctant. Ashamed. Like when I’m late or cancel, caught up in my brain, I often make a story up because I can’t bear to admit I’m feeling too low to struggle through the door. Or how I numb feeling by reading too much. Or eating, or watching. You throw stuff at feelings you don’t know how to deal with. I’m not alone in this strategy but it feels like I am, sometimes. Continue reading #TimeToTalk – #BreakTheSilence on mental health
So I HAVE DONE MY ONE WOMAN SHOW OH MY GOD. Deep breath, now. It’s awesome. The turnout was good (I feel incredibly privileged there, recently saw an Edinburgh preview that was EMPTY….) and the feedback better. There are messages on my phone from people who really wanted to come and couldn’t – whether politeness or genuine desire, I’ll find out next time I do … Continue reading Patreon: I Will Fail To Start With, That’s Fine (also, I Did The Show!)
I have to be brief. I have to be relatively brief or at least write quickly, because even though I’ve planned this blogpost for months, I’m in something of a rush. Looks like I keep failing my own perfectionism lesson. Some months ago, I started thinking of making Good Enough Diary my main webpage. My “brand”. Consequently, I stopped writing in it. Nothing wrong with having a brand, I … Continue reading Getting It Together For The Purpose Of Focusing
I wrote about mental health, because honesty etc. Or, my take on impostor syndrome. Continue reading Good Enough Hack: Name It, Don’t Shame It (Con Artist Syndrome)
6 months left until I hit the big 30! Feeling lost, confused, helpless, sad, confused… Granted, some of it might be due to Brexit. And no sugar diet (hello, withdrawal). The big leading Thing of Things that seems to be happening in my life: in my race to Become A Cool Person (which is not always successful, let’s face it) I seem to have lost … Continue reading Halfway To Thirty (Also Brexit, Fuck)
I’m writing. I’m confused. Nothing new here. Don’t know if I’m not doing a good enough job, representing myself, representing people – or should I let go of Things That Happened and get on with Characters I Have? I keep thinking that I’d not evolved enough to write this play. That the character – played, after all, by me – has a more interesting potential … Continue reading Girlfag Is Back (She Never Left)
It needs to be said: I stopped writing, because I don’t know what this journal is meant to be. I got stuck. Yes, perfectionism, but also – I want people to read me. This blog has been more of a place when I come to “write out” my thoughts. Write through the blocks. It’s a me-space that has not become a public space. It’s good … Continue reading What is it about?